You stood by me while I let others walk all over me. I never realized just how true, how pure your feelings were. You tried so hard to be the one I wanted, the one I fell for. But somehow, you always came up just a little bit short.
Looking back, I realize how terribly I treated you and I am genuinely sorry. We've discussed going back in time and you said you'd do it if you could have today's brain in yesterday's body. I said I would never go back. Well, I lied. Yesterday's body with today's heart. Yes, so I could see and truly appreciate what you tried so valiantly to be.
I know there were other outside forces working against us. But if I could have just pulled my head out of my ass long enough to see. Over the years, I've both loved and hated you. More than once, I felt betrayed by you. Yet somehow through it all, after all these years, I can once again call you my friend. I wish we had never parted ways, but if we hadn't, would you being in my life now mean as much as it does?
All I know is that you're here now. And here is where I will hope you will stay. Yet I don't know if that's possible. Once again, so many outside factors could easily pull us apart. If that's what is meant to be, then that is what is meant to be. But for some crazy reason, I feel like this time might be different. Maybe its just my tipsy, maudlin heart crying out to be loved. Maybe its more. Possibly, much less.
